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the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
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the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
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the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
27 August 2013 @ 09:11 am
so there was the spn kink meme prompt for a spn x wtnv crossover and...Collapse )

I am going to finish that eventually! I just... have no idea when. But! If you have not listened to the podcast that fic is based on, Welcome to Nightvale, WHAT ARE YOU DOING GO LISTEN TO IT RIGHT NOW. Shoo, come back after.

Also! Wow I am absolutely infatuated with Aloe Blacc's voice? He sings in Avicii's "Wake Me Up" AND OH MAN. Take a listen.

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Current Music: "Wake Me Up: -Avicii feat. Aloe Blacc
 
 
the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
26 August 2013 @ 05:24 pm
I AM BAD AT EVERYTHING.

Ugh ugh ugh. Okay, well, first. Ahem. I had to quit my second job because I hated it - I know I sound super whiny and awful, but it was really really really stressful (believe me when I say that I did not quit lightly) and it was making my anxiety (and suicidal ideation) much worse than it should be. I'm used to dealing with high amounts of anxiety obviously, but there comes a point when it just gets to the point where I can't even function. I spent all day dreading going to work, and all I could think about on my days off (which I never really had, but) was how happy I was not to be going in.

So yeah, money is really tight and that is very bad but I am in a much better place. I had another job interview a week and a half ago but I have heard nothing. I called them and they said it might be another two weeks. I've been putting in application after application, so. With any luck someone will call. (Or I'll finally hear back, yay!) But the bad friend bit. One of my roommates got an interview to a job we'd both applied for, and while I am super super happy for him, I am also so jealous. I am a terrible person. He needs the job, so I really want him to get it! But it just makes me feel worse about my own situation. I don't want to get the job instead of him, I'm just super jealous I haven't heard anything. I'm so self-absorbed it's awful I AM TRYING TO GET BETTER.

Other things of note: I'm finally catching all the way up on Breaking Bad. (DON'T SPOIL THE CURRENTLY AIRING EPISODES FOR ME PLEASE!) My roommates both love it and they offer me tantalizing little bits about what's going on and how heartbreaking and feels-inducing it is. I also picked up Cinder to read because I heard very good things! I hope it's as good as everyone's told me.

Um um um. I LJ so badly, ha ha. I'm scared to check my friends-list because I don't want to seem like a weirdo commenting on journals after I haven't done anything on LJ in so long.
 
 
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the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
27 June 2013 @ 12:19 pm
Ugh, so the reason I haven't been posting is because I have been super, super busy. I get on tumblr sometimes, but other than that my Internet usage is rather limited. I got a second job that I HATE. Seriously, I am almost at the point where I'd rather money just be super tight again than put up with this. (I don't mean that. Much.) Anyway!

Have y'all seen Hemlock Grove on Netflix? I don't know about the show, but the book is terrible. It is so pretentious it actually strains credulity. So bad. It is so bad. Parts of it are actually fun, though, just because it's so awful.

Also I am working on an original novel! I finally decided to bite the bullet and give e-publishing a try. Provided I finish it, of course. I'm also working on my DCBB - I kind of thought I'd lost the spark for it, but when I finally got around to watching the end of season 8 it aaaall came back. Sadly no tigerstiel for me this year. At least not yet...

Okay guess that's all for now.
 
 
the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
10 March 2013 @ 05:59 pm
Okay, so a few things have happened:

+ moved out of my apartment! bah. sleeping on a friend's couch until wednesday, when i'll be moving into a new place
+ work is pretty good, though i'm making practically nothing
+ my mom was getting worse, but after a recent doctor visit it seems like things are going to get better

Um.

I don't know what else to say? Guh. I keep stopping and starting lj back up - I don't even get on tumblr any more. But I'd definitely like to start again! Both here and tumblr. I've been writing a bit but I haven't gotten around to posting anything. :(

I'll catch up on my friends page soon.

Feel free to say "hi" though. :)
 
 
the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
01 January 2013 @ 12:19 pm
It's hard to be excited about the first of the month when that means that bills are due soon. I think things this month may be a little tight. Bah.

BUT! Again, happy new year to everyone! I'm not any more motivated at the new year than I am at any other time, so though sometimes I make resolutions it's not something particularly important to me. I guess this year - which is right on the heels of a pretty AWFUL few months - might be a good opportunity to make a fresh start, though. So my resolutions are:
+ WRITE MORE
+ GET A JOB THAT PAYS MORE THAN A PITTANCE
+ FIT INTO THAT BLUE DRESS AGAIN
That's probably something I can handle. (I hope.)

Also, here's the Yuletide fic I wrote: called Don We Now Our Gay Apparel, which is about April throwing an ugly sweater party, and is mostly told through Ann's eyes. I wrote a treat, too, (Community, jeff x annie) if anyone wants to read that.

Also, a big thanks to lickbrains for the v-gift! :D
 
 
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Current Music: "Little Talks" -Of Monsters and Men
 
 
the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
28 December 2012 @ 09:23 am
+ I watched "The Virgin Suicides" with my mother yesterday, and then I watched "ParaNorman" with Tom last night at bedtime. Oh, man, ParaNorman was actually super cute. In a creepy way, granted, but you know. That's all well and good. Neil was adorable - I liked him a lot. I kind of liked everyone, actually.

But "The Virgin Suicides" was pretty unsettling, and I'm not sure if that was a good thing or not - so I'm not sure if I liked it or not. I thought it was a good movie, but.

+ Remember that story I mentioned in this entry? The one based on an old yuletide prompt? Well, my phone has a voice memo recorder and on the way back home from my parents' house I wound up talking about the story for about forty minutes. It was so much fun, because I generated a lot of really lovely ideas. I hope I get this written, and it's not just one of those stories that I think about all the time but never fully realize.

+ I have SO MUCH stuff to do today; I'm taking this quick moment to write this because I wanted to flail about my story (I kept my mouth shut, notice! I am well-behaved) and rec ParaNorman and I really wanted to know what any of you thought about "The Virgin Suicides." (Is that supposed to be in italics? I'm suddenly blanking on movie titles. I think so. I think quotations is just for short stuff and plays and things. I don't know.) I know it's a novel, but I've never read it. Though, on that note, I want to start reading more. It's not like I neglect reading now, of course, I just feel like the greater variety of books I consume, the better my writing is.

+ And speaking of that, I'd really like to thank sunshineali for the words of encouragement on my last entry! I've got so many things I want to write, and I can either post snippets here in my journal, totally low-pressure and I don't need to edit, or I can polish the story up and put it on AO3 or whatever for others to see. So yeah, I'll probably be posting more, simply because I'm hoping to be writing more. (I'll have more time to myself soon, I think.) Not today, though - like I said, I have a ton of stuff to do. I need to be doing it now, actually.
 
 
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the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
26 December 2012 @ 10:05 am
YAY!  
+ Oh gosh, had a great Christmas yesterday. Well... mostly. My brother came home, too, so I had to deal with him - at least sort of, as I never actually spoke directly to him - but other than that it was a good day.

Got cool stuff, too! Tom got my Scribblenauts Unlimited (which is really fun), and my parents got me a really pretty dress, I think from modcloth, and a really cute case for my little kindle. AHH, MY GRATITUDE!

+ Weird question, I guess. But if you had to name a character after the month December, how might you go about naming him? I know it comes from Latin for ten, decem, but if I recall the very, very little, very, very shoddy Latin I learned, that has a c as in "cook" instead of how the "c" in December is pronounced in English. I thought Deccard, maybe, but I'm reasonably sure that might actually be a name, so that throws it right out. I also thought Diecel, because - at least in my head - the first part is pronounced just like the "Dec-" in December, but I hate the spelling. PARTIAL DISCLOSURE: THIS IS FOR A STORY I'M WRITING THAT I LOVE AND IS SO MUCH FUN TO WORK ON, BUT IS TECHNICALLY IN RESPONSE TO A RANDOM PROMPT FOR YULETIDE. There is no way I'm going to be able to finish it today, so I'm saving it for NYR. I have no idea when I'm allowed to talk about what I'm writing (AND I WANT TO SO BADLY, OH GOSH. I HAVE LIKE FOUR PAGES OF NOTES ALONE AND I HAVE LOVED COMING UP WITH THE CHARACTERS AND THE WORLD AND I WANT TO FLAIL ABOUT IT HERE.)

+ Speaking of yuletide, how did everyone who participated like their stories?

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+ My dad and I are going to try to see "The Hobbit" sometime before the new year. It's a really special thing, because when I was a little girl, that was the book my father used to read to me and my brother. And even if he didn't read it directly to us sometimes, he'd just retell us our favorite parts of the story. It's a really, really fond memory from my childhood, and I've been incredibly excited about the movie because of it.

+ I really like the song "Put the Gun Down" by ZZ Ward, but I always feel silly listening to it because it reminds me of SPN. Not the song itself, actually, just that the singer looks kind of like Alona Tal (or is pretty, white, and blonde, which is close enough in my head apparently, ha ha) so I always think of Jo. Here's the video on youtube if you want to see for yourself.
 
 
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the girl with the mousy hair // stark raving sane
+ So I literally have nothing to do until the new year. Blah. Either tomorrow or Sunday (which is Tom's birthday!) I'm going home to visit my parents. My mom's been pretty sick lately, and really weak, so I'm at least glad that I'll be there to help her out.

Like I've said before, I'm in a really shitty place in my life, but I'm trying to veer away from posting about a lot of really personal stuff here because I don't want to bore you guys, especially the ones of you here for only fandom and none of my ~hannah-nonsense~ (of which, I assure you, there is plenty) so I'm. Just not gonna rant! I might post about it in velocity_raptor which is supposed to be a personal-type journal thing, but I always forget about it and never use it. Maybe I'll fix that.

+ THOUGH SPEAKING OF FANDOM. I feel like I've been talking about Supernatural way too much lately - Lizzie Bennet Diaries, too, though as far as that goes CAN'T STOP, WON'T STOP. But that's mostly because for the first time I have a RL friend to watch it with! I got my friend Jennie into it, and now that season 8 is airing I CAN FLAIL TO HER ABOUT ALL THE THINGS. Funnily enough, I've also started re-watching the whole rest of the series with Tom, though it's his first time to see it. We just finished season one last night, and he was so pissed about the ending. He's seen an episode or two before, and all he's said about whether he likes the show or not is "When will I see Crowley?" so you can see he obviously takes his consumption of media very seriously. Ha, he got really frustrated with me last night because I kept wanting to talk about the show, and I was trying to tell him why I like Dean, and his character arc in the show, but I don't think he was really listening. Sigh.

Is there like an SPN friending meme going on anywhere? I have some really lovely mutual follows on tumblr who like SPN, but not so much on LJ, and I feel somewhat more comfortable talking and flailing here. My tumblr's basically just a place for me to keep pretty pictures and neat things, and though I feel like it is mine and I'm very, very grateful for all the lovely people I've met there, this journal, that I've had since like 2005 (OH ME OH MY), is somewhere I feel more like myself. Dude, I know, makes like no sense, but for my mental health, environment/healthy spaces ARE SUPER IMPORTANT TO ME.

+ I FOUND A LOVELY NEW SONG!



How I heard this is actually kind of funny. It was in the - I think latest? - "How I Met Your Mother" episode, playing at the end. AND THE EPISODE! JFJSKLJFDDSJ;FLKDSJ;LFK Okay, so I lost interest around season 3 or 4, really, but I couldn't help getting kind of excited about what happened.

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ANYWAY THE SONG IS FANTASTIC YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO IT. Yes, good. ALSO SPEAKING OF MUSIC ALWAYS FEEL FREE TO SHARE AWESOME SONGS WITH ME. AHHH! BRILLIANT IDEA. I'm going to change the sticky!post I have with stamps and stuff INTO A MUSIC POST. SO PEOPLE CAN ALWAYS GIVE ME SONGS, OHOHO I AM GREEDY AND I FEEL NO SHAME. Also so I can share cool music with you guys! Next to writing, I think, music is the most important thing in the world to me.

+ Is there any sort of etiquette for Yuletide treats? I have several I want to write, but... I mean, since everyone gets a gift it's not like anything I write will be their only fic, but. I don't know, should I post something since it's a rare fandom and any fic would probably be appreciated even if it isn't polished, or should I wait until I can edit and refine and only post it if it's like some of my best work? I DON'T KNOW. I don't want to give anyone a sucky fic, but I do want to share some fun, ficcy love. Ugh ugh ugh, I'm probably overthinking this.

+ I think I'll head over to comment_fic and see if any prompts catch my eye.
 
 
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